AND THE BLEEDING STOPPED.

Held on to what I knew for so long,

a little too tight,

barely breathing,

I clasped harder,

but I had to let go...

I was losing the life

I so struggled to live.

It's so easy to get stuck to what we know that we strangely try to hold on to it even when we shouldn't. Im not talking about material stuff, this is deeper. My friend just said if you do something and it does not empower you then you need to let go.

I took that, ran with it.

The pain will go in a few days, the scar will fade!

Now what's left?

To tie up the wound I have inflicted

and let it heal, slowly

... and the bleeding stopped.

Parting Thots

Letting go is actually harder than holding on but it's empowering!

HEART BRUSH

My thoughts gather,

time ticks by,

the drums play loud

reality sets in

I choose to have a good day

as my heart brush sweeps clean,

the webs of fear and dark voices.

My nervous heartbeat screams,

Chaos recedes to order,

light beaks through dark,

My heart brush sweeps,

this foreboding no longer creeps.

This week I push the limit,

of this lifeline given,

break the boundaries of self,

march through my created boundaries,

to gain from the pain,

my heart brush sweeps clean,

the stain from the bedroom walls.

Parting thots: Simple actions can change your destiny, either for good or bad, the choice is always in your hands even in the worst of circumstances.

Pic: scattereddreams http://scattereddreams.deviantart.com

TERRA FIRMA

Dark clouds disappear,

Im standing on the ground.

I hear the call.

Wake me up Im dreaming,

my minds playing tricks again.

Visualize the future though

Im all alone. It's not so bad.

Do you ever feel like

youre sitting by drifting by

and everything is magic.

I cant just not smile.

It's my secret weapon

as Im called to arm.

This minds explosive.

From graphic sex

to the tiny mundane ant,

my thoughts traverse,

like roots they dig deeper.

Crack this and I'm your friend for life,

thats what I need to hear.

Everything's wading fast, through this mind

like Im a tributary,

the powers stream beneath my feet,

everything's magic even the pain,

it lifts the soul. My distraction is fading,

my emotions wander.

How the psyche can transform.

Im having a good day, in my state of trance

I embrace this world.

Was floating

now Im on solid ground,

come, bend, bear,

break this ground with me.

Bloom this flower like springtime,

see the urgency in my breath,

make the leaves rustle,

as I'm inside, I surge.

Stand on this firm dry land.

Parting thots... Dont pretend to be what youre not, acknowledge it, embrace it, then ask. law of percentages.

Lighter than ever

Passion builds, heart rates increase, the thrill of another blog races in my veins, now I feel lighter than ever, been a while, but im through the tunnel now my minds clear, someone said it does pass...and it truly does. No waxing poetic here I'm speaking my mind, naked and unashamed and I like it all.

SPATE OF THINKING

Deep breaths, relaxed breathing my altaegos pulsating serious energy and I cant hold back. I realized way back in the days that sexual energy can be channeled to some other worhty cause. Its monday and talking about sex on a monday seems strange for some, not to me. Listening to hard paced music right now, My energy is rising...

Shauri yako! if it offends you.

Whos candid enough to indulge into a little hardcore talk? My guess, very many people are just too prude! Suck up the mask! got to be who we are!

My spate of thinking just went up a notch. I just turned my music up louder.

Parting thot: Sex is as natural as breathing, Where the *$%@ do you think we all came from.

TEASE ME! I MIGHT LIKE IT.

Been here before countless times. Need someone to see this as I do. Where's your danger, passion and excitment? Can I taste your mystery?

Lick the dressing from this lips. Maybe I will let you taste mine. Screaming louder will only make your punishment inflicted more bearable, I wait to see you lay there ashen gray, but alive barely loud enough to hear you say do me allover again, but im busy, maybe if you pay for my sex, its not free nothing this good is. Tied up on the balcony, balancing on the edge, I take you! Cut you up. Shall I let you fall?

Debauchery is my à la carte. Order from my menu.

Make life more tolerable for me. Give me some F@**kng danger again!

Parting thots... We all love danger. Life is full of it. I bleed it.

EVERYTHING COMES WITH A PRICE, I CAN AFFORD IT!

Yes! So Im conceited enough to say I can pay the price for whatever I choose to follow in life...

Now that seems too confident of me, Yes I am confident and totally hopeful. Ok I lost you somewhere with the word price and afford... it has nothing to do with material things and cash...please refer to some other shallow blog for that kind of fastfood talk.

This is all about guts and glory! A Vision, raw drive, determination and perserverance, sacrifice!... thats what many of our so called visionarys lack. FTS!

With all the stuff that we seen I still stand! Im not satisfied with where I am in life, no one should! Its not about not being content its about smelling the cheese but also knowing when its going bad! Too symbolic to understand?

Its got nothing to do with how much cash you have make or what you got, Proudly I can say I got the guts and the glory follows . I can pay the price anyday, Count me in.

Thats my personality and character. Strong, together, like yours and everyone else its flawed aint perfect though what stands out when you strip me to the bone is sheer muscle to live, march on, endure and attain! Cut me open and you will see blood, tear me apart and you will see a strong character solidly standing like body armour! I can afford to be blunt coz I know I have it in me.

So for you who still hold on to your inner child with fear and anxiety heres a word for you.
Drop down the little guy, put your face on the ground and spread them!...SMACK SMACK!!! hehe hahahaha...... Two whips on your diabs should bring you back to reality! You aint going nowhere when you hide behind your fears!

Karma aint biting me in the ass with this one. Its paying me back big time!

I hold my head up high always!

I Can Pay the Price! Can You?

Im listening to Starlight by Muse...I suggest you listen to it.

I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life....

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive....

Our hopes and expectations, Black holes and revelations,

Parting thots... In life, count the cost and be ready to pay for it when its due, Nothing comes easy or free.